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🏹:: not so RANDOM YAP OF THE DAY #day7

Sometimes I genuinely wish music was just music, with nothing else behind it.

And I don’t mean that in a bad way, because if I didn’t care about the artists, I wouldn’t even be into K-pop or J-pop like this. But at the same time, I feel like when you listen to music, being aware of everything happening with the artists shouldn’t be necessary… yet in these industries it feels unavoidable.

Sometimes I really wish there were just songs. No drama. No scandals. No fandom wars. No pressure. No constant issues. No hiatuses because of health reasons.

Because the truth is, almost every time I stan a group or even just start really liking an artist, something goes wrong.

The amount of hiatuses, especially because of mental health, is honestly concerning. And I would never hate an idol for taking a break, god forbid. If you need rest, take it. Your health should always come first. But it’s still sad how often these breaks happen because companies push idols too far, overwork them, or just don’t treat them like human beings.

And then there are the cases where members just disappear. They leave, get kicked out, or suddenly aren’t part of the group anymore. And again, I respect it, because health and personal life should always be the priority. But there are also so many situations where the company handles everything completely wrong, and it just makes the whole thing feel unfair.

What I’m trying to say is: as unrealistic as it sounds, I sometimes wish there could just be music. Nothing else behind it. No drama. No stress. Just songs and performances.

Over the years my taste has expanded a lot. I still mainly listen to K-pop, but I’ve also started digging into nugu and underrated artists, and recently I’ve been getting into J-pop, T-pop, and other Asian artists too.

But because of that, I’ve reached a point where I’m aware of way too many boycotts. And the fact that boycotts are even needed this often is just… disturbing. Like why is this so normal in these industries?

The reason I’ve been thinking about this today is because I was looking into what’s happening with ME:I, a J-pop group formed through Produce 101 Japan Season 3. Four members basically disappeared, and I didn’t even know what happened. I still don’t fully know how to explain the whole situation, but if anyone wants context, I’d recommend this video:
https://youtu.be/1bhqR4gkfZc?si=MMFPB...

And what makes it even worse is that ME:I is connected to another group called IS:SUE, which is literally my favorite J-pop group. They share the same company, and after reading more about the ME:I situation, I realized that a lot of fans are boycotting the entire company, which includes IS:SUE too.

And it’s just frustrating because I was finally happy that IS:SUE became a full-member group again after Rin was on hiatus for over a year… and now it’s like another mess starts right when things finally feel normal.

It also made me think about another situation that, in my opinion, is even worse: the MADEIN case. I was genuinely so excited for that group, but now they’re involved in a massive boycott too and everything about it is just messed up.
Here’s a video explaining it:
https://youtu.be/ayTiAaaF0NM?si=NLwU2...

And honestly, sometimes I start disliking my own music taste, because I feel like I have the worst luck ever with groups and biases.

It’s like whenever I get into a group, something happens. It doesn’t always have to be as extreme as MADEIN, but still.

For example, Gaeun was my bias even back in Limelight (before MADEIN). Then there’s Rami, who’s my bias/bias wrecker, and she might not even come back from hiatus. And my history with biases is actually insane: Jinni from NMIXX, Soojin from (G)I-DLE, Garam from LE SSERAFIM, Chaey from CRAXY, Hyunny from VVUP… and that’s not even all of them.

And it’s not just individual idols either. it’s whole groups and companies too. Lapillus’ company shut down. TRI.BE’s company went bankrupt. SPIA silently disbanded. CRAXY hasn’t posted a long video in 11 months, hasn’t posted shorts since December, and hasn’t released music since July 2024, so now I’m genuinely scared for them too.

At this point I don’t even know what the original point of this rant was anymore. I think it started with me feeling like I hate my own taste because I always get unlucky, and then it turned into me realizing how much drama and mess the industry constantly holds.

I just wish it could be simpler. I wish it could just be music.

that's all... remember to drink water!

- ndzy out

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🏹:: HOW MANY ULTS IS TOO MANY ULTS

- talking about groups. Also can you have more than one ULT OF ULTS like the supreme top or can there be only one?

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🏹:: recommendation

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🏹:: HAPPY 2 YEAR CHANNEL ANNIVERSARY

- actually it was on the 12th but I was so busy I forgot. I still am very busy with school so my apologies but this year there isn't a special video. I would just like to say I am very grateful for everyone who supports my channel no matter how long qnd I am really happy this channel stills exits and continues to grow.

Have a nice day, drink water!

-Ndzy

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AEROSIM CONGRATS ON 1K VIEWS!! 🔥 so deserved fr, y’all ate that cover UP. Keep goinggg!!

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i fear triples might beat itzy and become my ults of ults

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🏹:: WHAT ARE YOUR WSOTYS OF 2025 PEOPLE?

or some release everyone liked this year but you definitely didn't

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🏹:: 2025 RECAP / THANK YOU & HAPPY NEW YEAR 🤍

As this year is coming to an end, I wanted to take a moment to properly reflect on 2025: the good, the bad, the confusing, and everything in between. This year wasn’t perfect, not even close, but it was real, and for that I’m grateful.

This year taught me a lot about myself, about people, and about what I want to do with my channel. I wasn’t as active as I wanted to be, but I did try to slowly change the direction of my content. I started focusing more on what I genuinely enjoy. Sharing my opinions, rating music, and just having fun with it. It definitely has its ups and downs, but at the end of the day, I love it. Am I professional? No. But music isn’t about being professional, it’s about personal taste, feelings, and fun. And that’s something I want to keep reminding myself of.

Not everything this year was easy. The worst part of 2025 was definitely receiving death threats for over two months just because I gave Lisa’s songs low scores. Yeah… lovely. It wasn’t fun at all, and it honestly affected me more than I’d like to admit. But I also learned that sharing opinions online will always bring hate, no matter how politely you try to word things. Maybe I’m sometimes too brutal with my words, I’ll admit that, but come on… having an opinion should never lead to threats. Still, I’m learning how to stand my ground and not let negativity completely silence me.

Despite everything, there were also many things I’m proud of. I successfully turned 15, which is a really important age for me. I survived the first semester of 9th grade and I already know the second semester will be even harder. A lot of important things will happen in the upcoming months, and I’m honestly a bit scared. I know I might become even less active than I already am, but I hope you’ll understand.

One of the things I’m most proud of this year is that I managed to buy my dog a wheelchair with my own money. I know it is such a random small thing but to me it is really important. He says HI btw (last photo)

On a happier note music-wise, I went to zero concerts this year (sad), but my dad said he might buy me tickets to see ITZY next year, and I really, really hope they’ll come somewhere close 🤞. I also got three new albums this year:
• GIRLS WILL BE GIRLS – ITZY (bought myself for nameday)
• TUNNEL VISION – ITZY (bought myself for birthday)
• UNFORGIVEN – LE SSERAFIM (Christmas gift from my parents 🤍)

My ult list also changed this year, with tripleS and YOUNG POSSE entering my top 5 and I started to explore more nugu artists, which honestly says a lot about my music taste development.

Channel-wise… wow. This year I hit 1k, 2k, AND 3k subscribers, and I genuinely can’t express how happy and thankful I am for that. It truly means more than you think. I also managed to post 64 videos this year, which is somehow both surprising and disappointing to me. I also posted my 100th video, which is still kind of crazy to think about.

I do wish my community was a bit more active, not saying this ungratefully at all, but I’m still incredibly thankful for every single person who chooses to support me.

One of the best parts of this year was the people. I made a few new friends online, and I’m very, very grateful for them. But I’m equally thankful for all the friendships that stayed. So before this year ends, I want to thank a few very special people to me. These are not ranked, just people who came to my mind.

‪@Amandine___‬​​ — girl, where do I even start. I am so incredibly grateful that we became friends. You are insanely talented: editing, singing, dancing, rapping, analyzing… you’re smart, creative, and inspiring. What can’t you do? I’m grateful I found Aerosim and you. I don’t know if I ever said it out loud, but you’re genuinely an inspiration to me in many ways.

‪@Delulukpopqueen‬​​ — continuing with the talent of Aerosim and Bluestarz. What I love most about you is how funny you are, and I mean that. It might sound like a basic compliment, but for you it’s not. You’re so unapologetically yourself, unique in your own way. And of course, Chaeryeong lover, that alone explains why we’re friends. Never stop being yourself, okay?

‪@Random_edits_biana‬​​— another Chaeryeong lover (as expected). I feel like this year you were the person I agreed with the most, which is honestly rare. We don’t talk a lot, but when we do, I genuinely enjoy it. Another Bluestarz member, and I’m really glad I explored the KCA/VK-pop community more, because it led me to people like you.

‪@enisacore.ৎ‬​​— my dear Nissan. You little kiddo, I love you so much. You genuinely brighten my world. I’m 99% sure you’re the person I talked to the most this year, and I don’t regret a single second. You’re my energetic sunshine, and I hope I never lose you. Please keep being friends with me 🤍

‪@kpopsicle1‬​​— girlie pop, I miss you. We don’t talk often, and I wish we did, but life is hard for both of us and I understand that. I hope you’ll see this. I admire how smart, calm, and mature you are, and I really hope we never completely lose contact, no matter how quiet things get.

‪@fleur_wonyoung0‬​​— wifey. I miss you on YouTube, and I’m not even sure you’ll see this. But we still talk on TikTok, even if it’s just random videos of random stuff, and I’m grateful for that. We rarely agree on things, but honestly… that makes it more interesting. I love you, wifey.

‪@ChaeTwinkle‬​​— first of all, I want to apologize for not being very active on your channel. I hope you don’t feel like I’m ghosting you, because that’s truly not the case. I appreciate you so much as someone who’s been here since the very beginning of my journey. I still remember your start like it was yesterday. You’re kind, thoughtful, and genuine, please never lose that.

And there are more people I’m thankful for ‪@chqewinxx‬​​(i miss you) ‪@mistybean4228‬​​ ‪@ProudOrbit217‬​​ ‪@CatNagTaylorsVersion‬​​ ‪@sparklingchoice‬​​ ‪@viviylleia‬​​ ‪@Vivid_lineoffc‬​​ ‪@Queencardom‬​​ ‪@BadBunnyPR‬​​ ‪@Stayvile_edix143‬​​ @LinyPan ‪@damiconic‬​​ ‪@in.P1eces‬​​ ‪@aprilysmm‬​​ ‪@ae-lemon‬​​ ‪@ITZY‬​​ ‪@triplescosmos‬​​ and more . I’m truly grateful I got to meet you. We might not exactly be friends maybe we just talked once but I found it important and I want to wish you happy new year.

To end this: thank you to everyone who supported me this year, watched my videos, commented, agreed, disagreed, stayed, or even left. Thank you for being here.

I wish every single one of you a happy, healthy, and peaceful New Year. I hope 2026 brings you happiness, success, comfort, and good music. Take care of yourselves, be kind, and don’t forget to do what you love.

Happy New Year 🤍

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HELLO!?

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🏹::

I was gonna post videos but I am currently very sick so I apologize but everything is delayed. My apologies for inactivity.

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