ATHENA Gaming

Hey everyone, it’s been such a long time.
How have you all been?

Honestly, I feel both sorry and grateful writing this. I heard that many of you have been waiting for me, and while that makes me incredibly touched and proud… it also makes my heart heavy. I’ve finally completed my military service. Thank you so much for waiting, and I’m truly sorry it took so long to say something.

There’s been so much I wanted to share, but today, there’s something especially important I need to tell you. I’ve kept it to myself for a while, but I don’t think I can delay it any longer.

To be honest, I’ve decided to stop playing PUBG Mobile — and I have no plans to return to it in the future. It’s still a great game, no doubt about that. Even while I was in the military, I followed updates from time to time and admired how much it kept evolving. But I’ve changed, and the game has changed, and somewhere along the way, we just stopped matching.

There are many reasons, but the biggest one is… everyone’s just way too good now, lol. Back in the day, in my early 20s, I was confident in my skills. I dominated in solo squad content, took on multiple enemies alone, and felt proud of what I could do. But after almost three years of being away from the game, my instincts are gone. The mechanics I used to master feel foreign now. I hopped in recently and, honestly? I got destroyed. Everyone is so skilled now — it’s amazing and intimidating at the same time. I realized I just can’t play like I used to. It scared me.

And then there’s the direction the game has taken. I was someone who enjoyed intense 1v4 or even 1v8 fights. But the game has added features like revival systems, which made solo content incredibly difficult. Even before I joined the military, it was already hard. People would rush me just because of my nickname, trying to take me down for bragging rights. Facing 1v12 situations wasn’t unusual, and eventually, I just couldn’t survive. I’ll never forget the moment a fan killed me and started dancing on my body — it was funny, but also kind of devastating, lol. I needed those matches to be content, not comedy… so yeah, it hurt more than I let on.

When I logged in recently, I saw that you can revive three or four times now. There are titans, robots… It’s all so different. I realized then — the game just isn’t built for the kind of content I love making anymore.

You might ask, “Why not try different content?” That’s fair. But if you’ve followed me for a while, you’ll know — I love playing alone. That’s when I have the most fun. And to be honest, I don’t really have the confidence or motivation to try something else. It wouldn’t feel like me.

Lately, I’ve been playing a game called Arena Breakout. It doesn’t have a revive system, which I personally love. I even started a small Korean YouTube channel just for fun — nothing serious, just a way to practice editing again and enjoy the game at my own pace.

And here’s something big I’ve been wanting to share… I got a job. A real one! At a company you’ve probably heard of (though I won’t say where — I hope you understand 🥲). After quitting PUBG Mobile, I spent a lot of time studying video editing seriously. I even got some certifications. During my old streams, I used to shout “I need to find a job!” — and now, I finally did. Thank you to everyone who encouraged me back then. I really mean it.

These days, my life is completely different. I used to play games seven days a week. Now I’m lucky if I even log in once. Life is busy, stressful, and honestly kind of cool in its own way. I’m living a whole new chapter, and it feels tough… but good.

I actually considered returning right after my discharge. I really did. But when I picked up the game and saw how bad I’d gotten, I froze. The thought of showing that version of myself to you all scared me. So I kept hesitating… delaying… until it became today.

I’m sorry for taking so long. But I hope this message reaches you warmly. Thank you for waiting, for remembering me, and for supporting me all these years. I’ll keep doing my best in this new life I’ve started. And who knows? Maybe someday, I’ll get to say hello again — in a new form, in a new way.

Until then, take care. I love you all.

6 months ago | [YT] | 44,127

ATHENA Gaming

Hello, everyone! How have you been during the time?
I'm writing because I want to say hello😁


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2 years ago | [YT] | 17,787

ATHENA Gaming

1000 Videos 😂

I'll post my updates on Instagram from time to time!

THANK YOU ALL❤️

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2 years ago | [YT] | 6,367

ATHENA Gaming

Hello everyone, this is Athena.
I have some unfortunate news to share.

It seems that my videos will be uploaded only until August. I believe many of you will be surprised and disappointed by this sudden change. I very much feel the same way as well.

As I announced last year, I am currently serving as a social service worker.

In South Korea, when men reach adulthood, they are obligated to serve in the military for two years.
However, in cases where there are physical issues, they can serve as social service workers instead of active duty soldiers.

In my case, due to a herniated disc that occurred during a long live broadcast in the past, I was assigned to social service duty instead of military service.

While military service prohibits Youtube activities, social service workers, with the "permission of the country," can engage in activities such as being influencers on platforms like Youtube during their free time.

That's why I was able to continue Youtube activities for six months after my duty.

I cannot provide detailed information, but I have been notified that I will no longer be able to continue my Youtube activities from mid-August 2023 until September 2024, when my duty obligation ends.

It brings me down that I won't be able to show my gameplay to all of you for one year. I fear that I might be forgotten by you..

Well what should I do? I believe I must accept this situation.

With a positive outlook, I plan to make the most of this year by exploring new pursuits.

I will restart the exercise routines that I had previously paused, push myself to obtain certifications in video and photo editing, and dedicate more time to studying English.

During this extended period, I might fade away from your memory, but I promise that whether it's PUBG MOBILE or any other mobile FPS game, I will come back.

I will make another announcement in my final video in August. 🥺

Furthermore, I had previously expressed my intention to begin live streaming. However, I consistently postponed it not due to internet-related problems but because of potential legal complexities. Despite investing time and effort into research, I reached a point where I couldn't move forward with live broadcasting.

Initially, I was supposed to say my goodbyes in December of last year. Nevertheless, I am overjoyed that I had the chance to extend our time together, sharing, uploading, and enjoying moments with all of you for an additional eight months.

THANK YOU EVERYONE

2 years ago (edited) | [YT] | 22,809

ATHENA Gaming

NEWSTATE STREAMING IN ‪@Wynnsanity‬ 'S CHANNEL!
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Come and see us!🔥

3 years ago | [YT] | 6,724

ATHENA Gaming

MOK vs ATHENA

3 years ago | [YT] | 19,925

ATHENA Gaming

You guys playing NEWSTATE MOBILE?

3 years ago | [YT] | 2,935

ATHENA Gaming

For those who missed the streaming,
I've turned the previous stream into public!
Always thank you!🔥

3 years ago | [YT] | 965

ATHENA Gaming

oh thank you PUBG

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3 years ago | [YT] | 10,443

ATHENA Gaming

I appreciate you visiting my channel.

To be honest, PUBGM is becoming boring. I'm not sure if it’s the posting of content or the game itself.

I've been playing this game for 5 years, not counting the Chinese servers before the global release.

There were times during those years when I didn't have to constantly upload videos; there was no pressure at all.

I could just play around and die in game, knowing that the fun was all that mattered. I'd be satisfied if games served their intended purpose of stress relief.

Back then, I had a lot of fun playing.

Later, I struck it lucky and one of my YouTube videos was so much favored by the algorithm that I received a large number of subscribers.

From just the Koreans to many people worldwide, my videos increased in popularity.

I wasn't the best at speaking English, but I didn't mind.

I could demonstrate my thrilling gameplay to them without having to overcome a language barrier.

This attention and praise came from people all over the world.

That gave me more confidence, but it put pressure on me as well.

I've been working hard for years to present the best version of myself as a player on this platform.

If you saw the video I posted the day before, my heart was beating later in the game. All of the players were extremely talented.

I climbed to the roof after safely entering the circle with smoke grenades, followed by the final gunfights.

I felt so accomplished when I earned that chicken dinner.

It wasn't because I won the game; rather, it was because I got to show the gameplay to you all.

Before the commenters referred to me as a "bot slayer," I was happy.

Then It worried me.

It wasn’t the comments, it was the fact that my skills weren’t that relevant now.

Most of you probably already know this, but after 5 years of content, I don't get as many subscribers as I once did.

I've attempted to figure out why, but the truth is that I simply wasn't sufficient.

I'll say it again: I don't really have that much skill.

The game must provide the familiar excitement and fun in order to improve it.

Unfortunately, that hasn't happened in a while.

I only continued to play because I was under deadline pressure to upload content.

I'm not sure if taking a break would help this at all.

I did record more videos, though. I'll make an announcement here once I've taken some time to decide what will come next for me.



I simply needed to express my feelings.
This was translated for me by a good friend of mine.

I have to join the military at the end of this year, as many people are already aware of. (It is mandatory in Korea.)

I can no longer keep up with Youtube once my service begins.

I appreciate you so much following my stuff for all these years. I couldn't say anything more, even if I wanted to. You’re the best.

3 years ago | [YT] | 15,798