I think I’m more afraid to be alone, as opposed to feeling bad about the break up because it’s not a fulfilling relationship. I saw a woman on TikTok describe her relationship as fulfilling and I longed to experience that. I want this break up but I am so afraid of being alone. I’m so afraid of the grief. She has her mother who lives in the house with us and shows me repeatedly that she prefers her mother’s company over mine. I’m really going to hate living by myself again. But the cards said my money will be good again. She is buying a house and she said she I could come but I think it will be hell. She is OCD with cleaning and I don’t give a shit about a clean 🧽 house. I mean I do, but not like her. This relationship has been over for about 3 years. I really hate being alone; I have abandonment issues and the pain of aloneness is unbearable. She has sisters that she talks to everyday, she has her mom, and an aunt she works with and they are all close. I never really loved her because her Virgo rising made her so judgmental and critical of me. I tried & tried & tried, but I always came up short in her eyes. She loved her ex, when she still talks about her ex, her voice gets soft and tender. But her ex didn’t love her and wouldn’t have full sex with her. Then she had a nervous breakdown and her ex permanently distanced herself from her. I’m hurt, 😞 I’m a little disoriented, but even if she didn’t ask me to leave, her behavior shows it everyday. I’m no longer wanted here. Quite frankly, I don’t think I ever did it for her because she always tried to change me. I finally said “instead of trying to change me, why don’t you just go get who and what you want.” She is very generous with criticism & put downs. I feel embarrassed that I let myself get treated like that. I cried hard this weekend trying to grasp the end of this. Ironically, there is apart of me that doesn’t want this to end. Then there is a part of me that does. I think I’m more afraid of being alone than necessarily being with her. I wish I had her support. 😕 But this weekend I hired a Scorpio therapist, and I returned to Codependency Anonymous, and Love Addicts Anonymous. The therapist said it was time to love myself. But you know what? The world will turn again. I am so heartbroken 💔 but this too shall pass.
Laying next to her in absolute silence is not the kind of relationship I want to be in. I wanted her to come in the room - I don’t know why, we don’t talk anymore. I hate changing partners, she won’t leave but she makes it impossible to stay. I’m 😞 sad looking for another place while we share the same bed. I think we are both good people who has just outgrown each other. I have found a place. I just don’t know when to leave. Our lease is up January 2027 but she’s trying to buy a house now and I know I will be miserable 😭 trying to keep up with her inhuman cleaning standards. I don’t want to be with someone who doesn’t love me anymore. She is completely unconcerned, detached, and disinterested. I think we did pretty good for 6 years. Our families became friends but she has hard feelings towards me and she’s just not interested or invested in the relationship anymore. I found a place 2 months ago. Her mother lives with us and she always has something negative to say to me and about me. I prayed for the strength to leave and I have it. She just told her sister she is trying to close by March 2026. 🏠 So I guess I should try and move March 2026.
Testimony - the author of these coloring books - GM Blanchard, is a Libra sun, Pisces Moon, she was the black sheep of her family. Her step father would hang her upside down and beat her. She became an alcoholic and a crack user. I began to teach her that God gave her gifts and it’s her God-given right to financially support herself with those gifts. She received my words and took a class in my illustrations. She then created these beautiful coloring books. Without any marketing she has sold 22 books. The top selling book is the Filipina American Ladies of Distinction. So proud of her. If you or your shorty like to color and learn check out her books at Amazon. I will be interviewing her first real soon for the channel. This is the Amazon link bit it looks funny 😄 a.co/d/e1gcbf1
Me and the Scorpio have been together for 6 years! But Never Again! 😔This is my last Scorpio! My next lover will be a Leo! Water and air is not a good match from my personal experience!
Gemini ♊️ is reporting that some of the things are starting to happen today that was predicted in their reading. One of the things that was predicted was somebody that they really like was going to return this week in a very bold way I’ve gotten feedback that that happened today for several people.
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I think I’m more afraid to be alone, as opposed to feeling bad about the break up because it’s not a fulfilling relationship. I saw a woman on TikTok describe her relationship as fulfilling and I longed to experience that. I want this break up but I am so afraid of being alone. I’m so afraid of the grief. She has her mother who lives in the house with us and shows me repeatedly that she prefers her mother’s company over mine. I’m really going to hate living by myself again. But the cards said my money will be good again. She is buying a house and she said she I could come but I think it will be hell. She is OCD with cleaning and I don’t give a shit about a clean 🧽 house. I mean I do, but not like her. This relationship has been over for about 3 years. I really hate being alone; I have abandonment issues and the pain of aloneness is unbearable. She has sisters that she talks to everyday, she has her mom, and an aunt she works with and they are all close. I never really loved her because her Virgo rising made her so judgmental and critical of me. I tried & tried & tried, but I always came up short in her eyes. She loved her ex, when she still talks about her ex, her voice gets soft and tender. But her ex didn’t love her and wouldn’t have full sex with her. Then she had a nervous breakdown and her ex permanently distanced herself from her. I’m hurt, 😞 I’m a little disoriented, but even if she didn’t ask me to leave, her behavior shows it everyday. I’m no longer wanted here. Quite frankly, I don’t think I ever did it for her because she always tried to change me. I finally said “instead of trying to change me, why don’t you just go get who and what you want.” She is very generous with criticism & put downs. I feel embarrassed that I let myself get treated like that. I cried hard this weekend trying to grasp the end of this. Ironically, there is apart of me that doesn’t want this to end. Then there is a part of me that does. I think I’m more afraid of being alone than necessarily being with her. I wish I had her support. 😕 But this weekend I hired a Scorpio therapist, and I returned to Codependency Anonymous, and Love Addicts Anonymous. The therapist said it was time to love myself. But you know what? The world will turn again. I am so heartbroken 💔 but this too shall pass.
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Laying next to her in absolute silence is not the kind of relationship I want to be in. I wanted her to come in the room - I don’t know why, we don’t talk anymore. I hate changing partners, she won’t leave but she makes it impossible to stay. I’m 😞 sad looking for another place while we share the same bed. I think we are both good people who has just outgrown each other. I have found a place. I just don’t know when to leave. Our lease is up January 2027 but she’s trying to buy a house now and I know I will be miserable 😭 trying to keep up with her inhuman cleaning standards. I don’t want to be with someone who doesn’t love me anymore. She is completely unconcerned, detached, and disinterested. I think we did pretty good for 6 years. Our families became friends but she has hard feelings towards me and she’s just not interested or invested in the relationship anymore. I found a place 2 months ago. Her mother lives with us and she always has something negative to say to me and about me. I prayed for the strength to leave and I have it. She just told her sister she is trying to close by March 2026. 🏠 So I guess I should try and move March 2026.
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Testimony - the author of these coloring books - GM Blanchard, is a Libra sun, Pisces Moon, she was the black sheep of her family. Her step father would hang her upside down and beat her. She became an alcoholic and a crack user. I began to teach her that God gave her gifts and it’s her God-given right to financially support herself with those gifts. She received my words and took a class in my illustrations. She then created these beautiful coloring books. Without any marketing she has sold 22 books. The top selling book is the Filipina American Ladies of Distinction. So proud of her. If you or your shorty like to color and learn check out her books at Amazon. I will be interviewing her first real soon for the channel. This is the Amazon link bit it looks funny 😄 a.co/d/e1gcbf1
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Me and the Scorpio have been together for 6 years! But Never Again! 😔This is my last Scorpio! My next lover will be a Leo! Water and air is not a good match from my personal experience!
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Gemini ♊️ is reporting that some of the things are starting to happen today that was predicted in their reading. One of the things that was predicted was somebody that they really like was going to return this week in a very bold way I’ve gotten feedback that that happened today for several people.
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What causes you the most struggle with digitizing your expertise - writing a course or a program?
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