Some of you have noticed my YouTube channel was taken down. I did this because I’ve reached kinda a breaking point with reacting to KPOP and music in general.
I still love music very much, but I’ve found that I don’t really enjoy the reacting space currently when it comes to music. At least publicly.
I’ve thought long and hard about this and i genuinely felt like I couldn’t do it. I’ve been forcing myself to keep on reacting to Music knowing deep down how I’ve been feeling about it. So I just kept Going. The things is though… it never stopped how I was feeling. I’m sure you guys can see In my reactions. It’s hard to pretend like I’m loving it cause to be honest I’ve lost a lot of my joy for it.
4 years ago this channel absolutely blew up out of no where and I had no idea how to even handle it. I was not ready for what came with that. There’s not really a handbook for this sort of thing. I just wanted to have fun and share my thoughts on music.
I’ve definitely handled some things wrong and I take full responsibility for that, but this space has caused a lot of mental trauma for me so for the first time ever really I’m listening to how I feel and putting myself first.
This could be a 6 month break, even a year, or I may never come back on here. I want to give myself the freedom to explore those options.
I was going to keep my channel hidden because I did not want any expectations of me during this time but I did not realize how many of you re-watched my reactions. So the least I could do is have them up for you to view them.
I do want to say the biggest thank you to everyone that has shown me the most insane love over the past years. I am not the best reactor. I do not deserve the support you guys have given me. It’s still so crazy to me but I will take to heart the kind words many of you have left me over time.
I’ll still be active on my 2nd channel (you do not have to subscribe. This is not a push for that.) but it’s been so healing focusing on other interests of mine. I felt so trapped in this space.
Well merry Christmas to everyone and happy new year. Wishing you all the love in the world. Hope one day to see you all again.
It's December 1st! I'm excited for the posts this month! I'm planning on posting a reaction every day until Christmas as a thank you for all the love and support you guys give me through out the whole year. It's gonna be a mix of things and I'm sooo excited! Thank you to everyone that sent in recommendations! I included some of those as well.
Thank you guys so much for the support over the last 4 years. Forever Grateful! x
We just dropped 2 MV reactions for Early Access over on the patreon! If you don't want to wait for these to come on youtube come on over and hang with us! x
But no worries if you can't cause BOTH will make it over here on youtube for Y'all some time this week! 💕
Thank you all for your recommendations on the last post! I’ve written them down and I’m excited for December! It’s about to be crazy! 🎉
Big changes are coming to the channel starting in December and ngl….I’m so freaking excited for it. I’m just gonna do what I’ve been wanting to do for a while and AHHHHH can’t wait!
If I were to do an upload every day for December what would you want me to react to? Think of it as a series 😅
Things I can’t do on YouTube:
- Live stages (unless it’s uploaded to the company’s channel) - Full album reviews (I can check out a singular song or two from an album but that’s it NOT THE FULL THING) - variety content (those normally get blocked)
Comment down below! I’ll be heavily considering the comments with the most likes.
Is there anyone that is from Korea that can explain to me in simple form why it is okay to crucify a young man for simply living his life?
No I genuinely want to understand why it’s deemed okay to send death threats, protest, and tear apart Idols for wanting to be happy. I can’t seem to wrap my head around it.
I’m actually so angry right now. The fact that Wonbin got on Weverse to say “hey we talked as a team and WE ALL wanted him back” to then see some of y’all in the comments continuing to MISS THE POINT.
It was so bad that seunghan himself made the decision , after only having him back for 48 Fucking hours, to now leave permanently. I’m actually sick.
Y’all bullied that young man so much that he felt like there was no way he could stay and hurt the group anymore when in reality what’s hurting this group is THIS INSANE INHUMANE BEHAVIOR.
So this is what KPOP is about? Artists being held to an insane level of standard? Company’s doing a shit job at protecting them? Idols Forever to be alone so you can think that you have some chance with them when their job and dream is to make MUSIC? WE BARELY EVEN TALK ABOUT MUSIC ANYMORE. I don’t want it.
The fact that this group was quickly becoming huge. I was so excited for them. To see Sungchan and Shotaro FINALLY in a group and this is what they get? Wow.
I wish I could hug seunghan. I can’t imagine what he has gone through this past year and what kind of mental strain this situation has caused him.
Just wanted to come on here and let y’all know that I’m officially giving up the whole Album highlight/Best B-side reactions.
As most of you know my album reactions have been getting taken down by copyright for the longest. Nothing I did really worked. So I tried to post album highlights to at least give those who couldn’t afford Patreon something to view. I stopped doing that cause there were people voicing that they did not want the highlights. They wanted the full album. I tried to explain that I could not do that anymore.
So then recently I started trying this new way of just posting my favorite b-sides from the album. I thought this was perfect because at least most could see my favorite song in its full form with no cuts and get my overall thoughts of the album.
Unfortunately that’s not enough either.
So yeah I’m just giving up on it all together. Full album reviews will only be on Patreon moving forward. I can’t please everyone. I’m just going to have to come to terms with that.
Caitlin Benson
Hello.
Some of you have noticed my YouTube channel was taken down. I did this because I’ve reached kinda a breaking point with reacting to KPOP and music in general.
I still love music very much, but I’ve found that I don’t really enjoy the reacting space currently when it comes to music. At least publicly.
I’ve thought long and hard about this and i genuinely felt like I couldn’t do it. I’ve been forcing myself to keep on reacting to Music knowing deep down how I’ve been feeling about it. So I just kept Going. The things is though… it never stopped how I was feeling. I’m sure you guys can see In my reactions. It’s hard to pretend like I’m loving it cause to be honest I’ve lost a lot of my joy for it.
4 years ago this channel absolutely blew up out of no where and I had no idea how to even handle it. I was not ready for what came with that. There’s not really a handbook for this sort of thing. I just wanted to have fun and share my thoughts on music.
I’ve definitely handled some things wrong and I take full responsibility for that, but this space has caused a lot of mental trauma for me so for the first time ever really I’m listening to how I feel and putting myself first.
This could be a 6 month break, even a year, or I may never come back on here. I want to give myself the freedom to explore those options.
I was going to keep my channel hidden because I did not want any expectations of me during this time but I did not realize how many of you re-watched my reactions. So the least I could do is have them up for you to view them.
I do want to say the biggest thank you to everyone that has shown me the most insane love over the past years. I am not the best reactor. I do not deserve the support you guys have given me. It’s still so crazy to me but I will take to heart the kind words many of you have left me over time.
I’ll still be active on my 2nd channel (you do not have to subscribe. This is not a push for that.) but it’s been so healing focusing on other interests of mine. I felt so trapped in this space.
Well merry Christmas to everyone and happy new year. Wishing you all the love in the world. Hope one day to see you all again.
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It's December 1st! I'm excited for the posts this month! I'm planning on posting a reaction every day until Christmas as a thank you for all the love and support you guys give me through out the whole year. It's gonna be a mix of things and I'm sooo excited! Thank you to everyone that sent in recommendations! I included some of those as well.
Thank you guys so much for the support over the last 4 years. Forever Grateful! x
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Caitlin Benson
happy thanksgiving 🍁🦃 (to those that celebrate it!)
It’s been an insane year and looking back I’m just so thankful for all of you! Thank you for your love and support!
Hope everyone is doing well! Hope everyone has a great day! 🥹💕🫶🏽
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What’s y’all favorite Christmas movies? Hehehe 👀🤗
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BUBBLES!
We just dropped 2 MV reactions for Early Access over on the patreon! If you don't want to wait for these to come on youtube come on over and hang with us! x
But no worries if you can't cause BOTH will make it over here on youtube for Y'all some time this week! 💕
www.patreon.com/c/caitlinbenson
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Thank you all for your recommendations on the last post! I’ve written them down and I’m excited for December! It’s about to be crazy! 🎉
Big changes are coming to the channel starting in December and ngl….I’m so freaking excited for it. I’m just gonna do what I’ve been wanting to do for a while and AHHHHH can’t wait!
Btw it snowed today 😭 - I hate winter 😂
Anyways hope everyone has a great day! 🫶🏽
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If I were to do an upload every day for December what would you want me to react to? Think of it as a series 😅
Things I can’t do on YouTube:
- Live stages (unless it’s uploaded to the company’s channel)
- Full album reviews (I can check out a singular song or two from an album but that’s it NOT THE FULL THING)
- variety content (those normally get blocked)
Comment down below! I’ll be heavily considering the comments with the most likes.
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Just testing something real quick.
Would Y'all be okay with K-dramas/movies being uploaded over here instead of the 2nd channel?
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Is there anyone that is from Korea that can explain to me in simple form why it is okay to crucify a young man for simply living his life?
No I genuinely want to understand why it’s deemed okay to send death threats, protest, and tear apart Idols for wanting to be happy. I can’t seem to wrap my head around it.
I’m actually so angry right now. The fact that Wonbin got on Weverse to say “hey we talked as a team and WE ALL wanted him back” to then see some of y’all in the comments continuing to MISS THE POINT.
It was so bad that seunghan himself made the decision , after only having him back for 48 Fucking hours, to now leave permanently. I’m actually sick.
Y’all bullied that young man so much that he felt like there was no way he could stay and hurt the group anymore when in reality what’s hurting this group is THIS INSANE INHUMANE BEHAVIOR.
So this is what KPOP is about? Artists being held to an insane level of standard? Company’s doing a shit job at protecting them? Idols Forever to be alone so you can think that you have some chance with them when their job and dream is to make MUSIC? WE BARELY EVEN TALK ABOUT MUSIC ANYMORE. I don’t want it.
The fact that this group was quickly becoming huge. I was so excited for them. To see Sungchan and Shotaro FINALLY in a group and this is what they get? Wow.
I wish I could hug seunghan. I can’t imagine what he has gone through this past year and what kind of mental strain this situation has caused him.
Absolutely disgusted.
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Caitlin Benson
Hey guys!
Hope everyone is doing well!
Just wanted to come on here and let y’all know that I’m officially giving up the whole Album highlight/Best B-side reactions.
As most of you know my album reactions have been getting taken down by copyright for the longest. Nothing I did really worked. So I tried to post album highlights to at least give those who couldn’t afford Patreon something to view. I stopped doing that cause there were people voicing that they did not want the highlights. They wanted the full album. I tried to explain that I could not do that anymore.
So then recently I started trying this new way of just posting my favorite b-sides from the album. I thought this was perfect because at least most could see my favorite song in its full form with no cuts and get my overall thoughts of the album.
Unfortunately that’s not enough either.
So yeah I’m just giving up on it all together. Full album reviews will only be on Patreon moving forward. I can’t please everyone. I’m just going to have to come to terms with that.
see y’all in the next video! 🫶🏽
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