myunderworld
a chronic misfit thinking aloud at the limits of language
▪ first-person phenomenology and cultural reflection
▪ non-therapeutic, non-diagnostic inquiry
▪ working outside regulation-first frameworks
▪ recognizing multiple baselines of existence, cognition, and ways of relating to intensity
▪ not fixing anyone, including myself
☼don't fit stay lit
warning: I ramble a lot
dark language ≠ distress
myunderworld
I wrote an article from the near-shutdown state (with AI help, because that's the only realistic way I could have done it)
anrinex.substack.com/p/what-nervous-system-shutdow…
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I found myself on the edge of a shutdown state, which was triggered by something that has always caused pretty deep existential distress for me. Before, I would just fall into shutdown states not knowing why or how I ended up there. This time I could see the reasons for it and track my state in real time, and (hopefully) avoid getting stuck there. I made a clumsy short video just to restore a bit of agency around it.
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A new Substack post. I am preparing to make a video about how I came out of my freeze, and writing is a part of how I circle this theme in preparation. It's not just for those who have experienced chronic illness/shutdown, but for anyone who has experienced time as an enemy at some point.
open.substack.com/pub/anrinex/p/a-lost-decade-arri…
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Weird little party on my desk
Advanced English reading for Japanese students (work), a book on writing, some Bataille in Japanese, and tarot cards - since mine are not yet made.
makes sense if you know me tho
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I just created a Substack account. I ramble less in my articles :)
anrinex.substack.com/
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